This is monumental.
I've been drinking a solid average of 4 to 5 since I was about 13.
I've been thinking a lot about addictions recently. Like what causes someone to feel dependent on a substance, the physicality of it all, etc. and decided that I don't want any part of it. I want to be able to just drop something if I want to, without having to worry about my body's reliance on a chemical. So when my friend Andrew explained to me how aspartame reacts similarly to how formaldehyde would, preserving fat in your organs so that it won't burn away, I decided to lay off.
Now I want to learn more about addictions that people have. And what constitutes an 'addictive personality'. And how people are addicted to abstract things, like feelings or situations. Library tomorrow probably.